gooodbyeee!

hey guys, i have a feeling that this is goin to be a long post, a long and very honest post. i'm going to talk about the year 2009.

where shall is start? at the beginning of the year 2009, i thought it was going to be an awesome year for me, it'll be better than 2008. but somehow i was wrong, i was so wrong. the year 2008 was just wonderful and amazing, in the year 2008, schooling took partly most of my life. i was happy ,i wass soo happy because i hav the most amazing class and calassmates ever! seriously, i've made amazing and wonderful friends and i can say my calss had the best teacher ever! (: sure there's some up's and down's during that year, partly cause of my friends, but we stuck with each other the whole way through. i was so bleesed and thankfful i had such wonderful friends.

the start of 2009 took a serious toll on me, i was picked by my teacher to become class monitor . it took me a shock when teacher said i 'look' like i could do some stuff. oh well thanks alot then, sure i gained experience through out the whole year but that wasnt the point of it. slowly, school activities start to fill my schedule again. i was thankful enough that i managed to join the volleyball team for selangor this year. to be honest, it really wasnt easy. tranings were tough and i wasnt the best of em all. coach was pressuring me since i was a new player. i looked at my other friends knowing that i could do the best just like them but i cound't. another hit was school roadrun. i was determine to win for this year's road run. I thanks God that i did (: mount KK was also a hugee booster for my convidence again, an experience knowing that i could do things that i thought i wasnt capable of.
as time paasses by, i was getting along very well in school but i wasnt as happy. i started to get caught by the disiplin teacher very often. till the extend that they even hav to call my parents for some serious talk. for some of those who are reading this, you'll probably know what i'm tlaking about. it's about a boy. i shed tears everywhere during that month. could not bare to think about it again and thought that i would dissapoint my parents. they didn't schole me or whatsoever but deep down i know that it hurts. after that, i wasnt so happy anymore.

and there's goes a time when there's downs, recovering, and then there's ups again. but it wasnt such a happy story for me either. after what happen that month, it happened again. it wasnt such a happy moment at all. i was soo depressing and tired i even suggested tto transfer schools, but it wasnt the school's problem. it was me. One thing i thank God for was giving me really good friends, good friends during hard times like these. I think they know who they are. New friends, old friends that came back, old friends that stuck through, all of them helped me out when i was down. xukie when i was feeling sadd, rachel for always leading me her shoulder to cry on, yee aung for always suupporting andd listening to me, melissa for always being there for me no matter what, amanda who listened and cared for me, kenneth for understanding my problems and needs. that's when i know no matter what happens to me, they'll always be there to back me up no matter what. special thanks for my brother, for alwayss listening to my problems and complains. and there was FAB night, everyday practising really took my attention away from all the depression. i was proud of myself again.

i didnt' say 2009 was a complete shit to me. as time goes by, i know what's most important in life and what's not. i have friends who are always with me when i am down. unfortunately, things got down again during mid year. it involved friends that i trusted, friends that i loved. it made me really really saddd andd sheding tearrs about it almost everynight. i always ask God why but i guess He has a better plan for me. sooner after that, i got fired from my 'job'. even more depressing after getting caught again.

and then there's family vacation. that really was a big medicine for me. i got to spend some time with my family and i felt kinda happy. school closed. holidays start.i thoguht i heard a calling, a calling from God, such a screwed up lifee. i heard God calling me for mission trip. it wass a life changing experince for me. i guess God's showing His way for me. leading me through all this while. i got to know soo much through mission trip. and there's church conference. i was soo greatful and excited to do God's work and even knowing more about Him. i've met awesome friends there. sorry didn't upload any pictures. ;/ it changed my life.

and there comes an ending to it all. family time with cousins. it wass the best (: i had sooo much fun with them jusst having seafood at nights or maybe goin to petaling street with them.

one thing is for sure in the year 2010, GREATER THINGS (: yes, greater things indeed.

goodbye jelooowakoookiilala!