okay yeah hi again fellaaa peoples, its currently 1.17am by looking at this tiny lil watch at the bottom right hand of the computer. you know i suddenly have this urge to come and write about what happen lately. so what if tomorrow's qing ming and wad the heck am i suppose to do there? pray for them, get sweaty, smell yellow same boring flowers every year. sigh. iit's late now and noone is online to chat with. zzz. mel came over just now. at about 11am, she told me lots of dirt (: hehee, and same goes to rachel. i know how it feels to be you rachel. sometimes it just hurts so badly. but still, we doo hav to wait. soo yeah the only advice i can give u is to understand (: its soo simple yet so hard. volleyball today was tiring, my knees nearly broke when i was playing. it was sooo damn pain it hurtsss mee so much! ): coach was being really mean to esther today. if i wwas her, i would have cried too. or mayb just lost my confidence on the spot. but very weirdly coach never gave up on us. he said we shall never give up no matter what, just try our best but you can't give up. and giving up is showing a sign to our competitors that we're going to lose. so that words reallyy make sense. to make our team spirit moreee active and not to give up so easily. good training today, coach was awesome (: i got some dirt from wei tyng too today. too bad he didn't tell me whose that. orelse ill just die. haha X) to someone very special to me, u may not know how i feel right now, but it hurts, and to see her like that. i really can ccry, i didnt mean to do anythingg hurtful. and i ddint know it was caused my me myself. i feel confused, worried is what i shall say. maybe im just thinking too much thats all.

Another thing here goes to someone that i care about, don't cry just because the person u loved soo much didnt realise how special you're worth. it's not worth it to cry over again and again and again. to see you cry like that really hurts and makes me wanna cry too. soo, yeaahh, it's not worth it anymore. so dont' think about it and justt move on..

sigh! what a crappy post todayy. its seriously weird. so sorry for all the small spaces that people can get eye pain when they read. or is it just me i wonder.? i miss my friendsss ..alot. ):

and just to add on, john mayer is the best! (: he's album live in LA is just sooooooooo effin awesomeeee ;D hahaaa. i guess ill just sign off here, sry for the lame post. zzz. now i think i just wasted your time. ciaoooooooo