I realise something, you can't have everything. you just CANT seriously, i've learnt a lesson in life, and you just can't you know! when you got thiss right, there's always that wrong. you can't have both., you'll never have.

i really don't understand why lor, God giving me a task so that i can go through this. seriously?
-.- whatever it is, i've tried my best, but my best was just NOT GOOD ENOUGH. everything i do is just not Good enough. SERIOUSLY!